So I “quit” smoking about a month ago. The quotes are needed as since then I’ve had just over half a pack but real cigs have become disgusting to my palette. The cravings hit mostly when I’m bored, when I wake up especially or when I’m drinking a glass of wine. Okay, let’s be real, it’s a few glasses at a time, but I also am getting close to two months off meth and that’s the real victory, though I do greatly question which is worse, like meth is the obvious choice but cigs just kill you and ruin your life all slow like whereas meth does the exact same shit just ion a way shorter time frame so like how is it not basically just kind of the same? I don’t know, I’m weird, common fact yo.
I’ve been using a Cleito tank that’s pretty good and I’'m partial to fruity flavors but I’m really interested in mixing my own E-juice just because I want to feel more solid about what exactly is going into what I’m inhaling and where it’s coming from. Plus I’ve heard it’s like hella cheaper and I work at a discount tool store and let’s just say money is not in great supply for me, like case and point: I just got a 9 month housing voucher in Utah,l (yes sad, weird and painfully true that I live here) but does that tell you what my finances currently look like?
I smoked since I was 4, didn’t even really get sick my first time and my mother was a meth dealer with the memory capacity of a pine cone and conveniently enough usually had 4 to 6 cartons of various brands in the freezer and stealing a pack was never hard until I was a teenager and put foot to the street and went out and found some shady smoke shops that would sell to a teen with a 5 o’clock shadow like any respectable young juvenile delinquent should. I’m only 28 and I have spent 24 of those years smoking and after coughing up some sizable chunks of my lungs I decided that I desperately needed to stop and became desperate enough to call TRUTH and attempt their method of nicotine gum and patches; p.s. fuck that noise, my dreams are scary enough.
Despite the awesome tank I have, the battery I’m using is only a Smok (not box, loses charge way too fast, was given as a gift) so I need some suggestions as to a good site to check out for a box battery, or whatever the technical term is same as some suggestions as to a good site to check out about getting some PG and VG and maybe a sample pack of some flavors. Like I know little to nothing about what I’m doing and you can call me whatever dirty names you want in exchange for some advice or help and the cheaper the suggestion the better as my job barely covers bills, (yes people on housing still have to buy food and pay for electricity and stuff lol) and I’m using cash I got from donating plasma to attempt to cover my wider horizons.
Let me know whatever, or even if you have some cool jokes leave a comment. I likes me some jokes. But seriously, call me a noob, whatever, I need people smarter than me to tell me what to do or point me in the right direction and since if it’s on the internet it must be true, I find my self refereed to here. Please ridicule, talk smack, break me down so I need therapy, it is all an acceptable trade to success in my fight to quit smoking cause like I have a kid and reasons to live and know what joy and hope feel like and totally admit that, for the most part, I am an idiot, and now that we all accept that fact we can move forward with meaningful conversation. Thanks for any feedback. Truly. It’s just too damn hard working, staying sober, being a Dad and everything and trying to stay off cigs at the same time. Like I have all the faith in the world in vaping, I’m just ignorant lol.
Holla
for trying to clean up for your kid and yourself, quite a strong story you’ve got and thank you for having the nerve to be frank about it.
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