So, haven't put my quitting the dirties story up yet because, well, I wasn't sure how I would be perceived afterwards and I'm still kinda new round here and I love how welcomed I have felt and the new friends I have found on ELR, but you know what, I turned myself around and I'm damn proud of myself for doing it too, so this is my story (essay..sorry lol)
I smoked from the age of 16, my parents smoked, my sister smoked, my friends smoked...it was inevitable, I was a heavy smoker too, I was a nervous kid, had a few issues,ADHD wasn't really a 'thing' back then but everyone believes I went un-diagnosed for years, then as I got into my 20's I hit the clubbing scene pretty damn hard, at the Hacienda every weekend religiously, by this time I was smoking heavily, drinking heavily, taking recreational drugs etc and everything else that went with it but smoking weed was my weakness, it just went with the territory, every night pretty much, every time I tried to stop something bad would happen and I'd be back even worse than before, this is how it went pretty much through my 30's, through a divorce, losing my father, knock after knock. Then...at the age of 40, my back popped, had to have constructive spinal surgery, pins, rods etc, big op which put me in bed for 3 months, it was just before the Op that I got with my current Girlfriend Jo, man did she put herself in for a rough ride, I was a mess before the op but after?....wow...from the minute I woke to the minute I slept I was stoned, 'self medication' I called it, for the pain, it helped but to be honest it was just to alleviate the boredom, but I was smoking so much I started to suffer from cannabis psychosis, and that ladies and gentlemen, will put pay to everything you love, How Jo stayed with me during that time I will never know. Anyway, Jo became pregnant by this time, much to the surprise of everyone seeing as I couldn't even walk and at first I just carried on pretty much as normal only I was put outside the house for any 'medicating' ......but then I met her, and everything changed. I already had a son he is 21 in Nov from a previous, previous....previous girlfriend (not wife..no kids with 'that' thankfully) but this little girl, man she was beautiful, I mean all parents say that I know but, she was really something (clearly get's it from me I know ...) and I knew what had to be done,I went to the doctors first and fainted when he told me to breath out as hard as I could, then I went to a few meetings, you know the ones where you sit in a circle and tell your story, I did the whole CBT sessions but nothing...and I mean NOTHING had prepared me for the power that little bundle had over me, I quit, took me maybe 6 months to start feeling normal again and once I did I bought my first e cig, I was still smoking tobacco at that point, one thing at a time and I knew if I could quit weed I could quit anything, the chewing gum didn't work, patches did nothing but this, this was ok...I could do this, so I jumped at it, apart from one stretch of a few months after a Holiday in Turkey where I had a relapse because well...you know, it was Turkey, even the pets smoke in Turkey, it was just after that that I bought my first sub ohm tank, a 40w Vamo V8 and a bottle of mothers milk, I was away.....I wanted to know everything!, and that pretty much brings me to today, happily smoke free 2 years or so, with an ever growing Vape obsession, which to be honest had started to wain slightly before I came to ELR, I cannot tell you how much all you lovely people have taught me, I mean seriously, it's unreal and I am eternally grateful to each and every one of you!...sorry this was a bit of a therapy session haha but it's important to me, I may have a lot longer with my little family thanks to vaping and I'm pretty sure I genuinely owe it my life.