There’s going to be a lot of text here, so all you smooth brain apes who are on reddit, a text based website, yet are still to retarded to read, can skip to the end where there will be a very short summary, a bottle of milk from your mother, and a blankie.
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Always hated reading these. It’s opinion only. Stats can be bent to say what you want. Not saying it won’t work out to advantage of the writing.
I have lived through four recession’s. Not one has been the same. Laws have been changed to protect banks from bankruptcy that demands 20% down on mortgage loans that never existed before the last collapse. People are less likely to walk.
Duh! The Fed rising of rates will stop many of qualifying for larger loans. Of course it will. It doesn’t stop people from buying less expensive property. Im proof of that. My rates in the mid 70’s was over 7.5% and was making $6.50 an hour.
All I’m trying to say is there are so many variables and if the Fed is successful on a soft landing all this won’t come to pass any conclusions can happen from no change to full blown collapse.
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Ignorance is Bliss.
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What are we looking at here exactly @fidalgo_vapes?! I bet with the minds around this place you can get something close brother!! 
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Its a Yogurt Dipped SB Granola Bar
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On my hit list… FLV Granola donewt have the sugary notes if im not mistaken, BUT, there has to be a work around… Lets keep the conversation going!!
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Not long ago, I wrote a lengthy message to a person on the steps in order to seek help and get funding for addiction and counselling to alleviate the clear struggles they were having, while yes I can be a complainer and having issues with my own mental health with paranoia and the anxiety it comes with living, I do care to help people. Sometimes I guess it just falls on deaf ears or is unappreciated.
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I don’t know whether you were responding about my most vapers don’t have jobs, head to DIY mixing discords and see how many regulars are playing games all day. Either that’s a cozy job or they’re either unemployed, disabled or retired. It wasn’t a backhanded comment, which I guess you could expect from me it’s true… There’s literally people on the DIYorDie discord that are on all hours of the day. Good convos if you need some company in the middle of the night, which is why I suggested it.
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And if you’re talking about my own health, well I’m trying… I’ve had high blood pressure my whole life, started on 1 pill, now I’m at 4… Years went by, I had tried to get help but my doctor said “some people were born with it” I had 2 kidney stones back to back, they checked my kidneys out and I had a staghorn calculus and a tumour that was once small but grew and was crushing my kidney as it was left. No Urologist appointments, just scans to see if it was getting bigger, which it was, but my doctor said “if it’s not broke don’t fix it.” I had untreated mental health conditions, severe anxiety which I was hospitalized probably over 100 times, thinking I was having heart attacks, strokes, couldn’t breath, etc… I also have ADHD pretty bad and people with that condition tend to gravitate towards drugs, well, weed gave me horrible anxiety so to quote Brad Knowel, “A 40oz to freedom is the only chance I have, to feel good even though I feel bad”…
I was pretty severe, started with a 6 pack of tall boys to a bottle of rye a night. When I was around 23, I was drinking a whole weekend and predict I hadn’t taken my bp meds for a couple days because I was starting when I first woke up. Well, I smoked about 1-2 packs a day as well and I was chain smoking on my way to the grocery store 4 blocks away, I entered and everything got blurry, my head felt like a knive was stabbing it and felt super weak, I turned outside of the automatic doors and collapsed drooling all over my phone as I rememeber I was trying to call my mother’s name and the only audible thing I could hear myself was mumbling… I came to, eventually, and the number I was trying to dial was just a series of numbers and letters, nonsensical. What would normally take me 20 minutes took me over an hour, probably 2 because I needed to rest at every bench back home. I was terrified of my blood pressure getting checked, so I never called help because of my paranoia and anxiety. I addressed this issue to my doctor and he was adamant I needed anxiety meds and SSRI’s because I was imagining things. I denied any because I was far gone into alcoholism and knew I’d mix the two and die eventually.
Several years later, I got sick of getting new BP meds and was having issues walking, legs would cramp up so bad I couldn’t wiggle my toes, couldn’t even walk to the gas station a block away and I had done nothing but physical stuff, work, I had no vehicle so it wasn’t uncommon for me to buy 6-7 bags of groceries and some booze, toss it in a hiking backpack and walk around town… I was in amazing shape physically. So upon hearing it’s all in my head, I was under the care of a nurse because I had begun treatment with my severe paranoia and she’d come visit to make sure my house was in order and vitals were good (I usually needed a nurse to check my BP manually because the machines send needles up my spine). She suggested a female doctor and I agreed, so I went over and within 2-3 visits, I had scans, bloodwork done (turns out the meds were depleting my body of potassium to dangerous levels) and I had a referral to a Urologist. Within a year I was able to get the kidney removed, which was causing an average of around 170/120 sys/dia at all times… During this time I was taking Invega Sustenna injections and some other things, every month I was gaining weight, every month I was unable to walk the 20K steps I used to average in a day when I was off work. My doctor couldn’t address these issues because she was pregnant and was closing her clinic to have kids, coincidentally so was the nurse as well (which was really amazing because she was skinny and kinda wore loose athletic gear, but I had no clue. So I went to a new doctor and this guy has a pretty poor rating online.
So essentially, I’ve had a stroke, I’ve gained 200lbs and I’m unable to walk to the end of my street without getting so winded I think I’m going to die, also I predict that since my stroke I’ve had Severe Sleep Apnea because I’d always wake up after a couple hours of being drunk and passed out and heart rate would be well over 100 and I’d be gasping for air. My AHI (Apnea Hourly Incidents) when I literally had to sign my medical rights over to my mother so she could get him to test me, was on average 111 incidents per hour and said that I needed a BiPAP machine with oxygen because of the CO2 in my body. I’ve tried. He is the only doctor accepting patients right now. I’ve had to cab it to his office 3 times, in order for him to diagnose my infected tonsils. I’ve had scabs up my legs, feet that were opening and oozing with puss, he did nothing to check my blood sugars, or anything. I was simply given a referral to get wound treatment at the hospital and antibiotics and a biopsy. Now my current issue is I have Pitting Edema and the really swollen parts feel like a firm putty that you can press your finger into and it leaves a dent for quite a while before slowly springing back. Lack of sleep, lack of care and everything has severely fucked my mental health up. I guess from what I’ve been told is I’m on the spectrum of Schizo-affective order and the severe anxiety attacks I have are now treated with 2mg of a benzo which I don’t want to use because now I’ve found my use getting worse and I’m going awhile without it and if you’re constantly scared of dying every day, bump that up a couple notches when I think I’m experiencing withdrawls… But it better that the other option because I wanted to get off of my schizo meds because my physical health has progressed to the point I can’t do things like wipe my ass properly. I’m trying.
Now all while this shit is happening, I’m still having zero support systems, zero spare income and I still try to offer assistance to people who I think could use a hand. Despite my own struggles. If that’s making some juice, buying a disposable, sending money, buying food, offering advice from the many bumps in the road I’ve had, I do it. And to say I’m doing “nothing” is par for the course with the stuff I’ve done for people despite being already at a serious disadvantage. You’re all welcome.
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I was just fucking around joking I:hope u know that friend! 
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Damn Joel, I’m sorry you’ve had to endure all that. I work with a lot of people that have gone through some of those struggles, but nothing like what you’ve experienced. I honestly hope the best for you.
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Well, funnily enough I saw my Doc today, I asked about my blood work results, without looking at the computer he said, “It’s ok, is that it?” I said I needed stronger benzos, he filled it and said I didn’t need a referral because I’m fine “from what I can tell”. Well, I asked my pharmacist and he pulled up my file and I guess my sugars are ok, but my cholesterol is high… Wouldn’t that be something to warn a person about, especially of my size? He even looked at my legs and said I should go back and hound the doctor about the swelling or Edema… It’s so frustrating…
And thanks…
I should apologize though because I was a little messed up last night and got carried away…
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That big dip is my shin, everything else is swollen, it feels like leather and the skin is starting to turn colour. The pressure is so great at times it feels like a warm sock is choking my legs, I hate it.
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Doc, what do you think this is?
Me, i dont know man, i didnt dedicate my life to treating people.
Doc, I will get a referral for wound treatment and some antibiotics…
3 months later…
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It hurts to walk, I get winded super easily and apparently that’s perfectly normal health wise, despite 5-7 years I was able to walk 10x the distance I can now… No cause for alarm though, you just need stronger schizo meds and Benzodiazipiens.
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Dude don’t take those @anon44012888 anything seriously from me. We mess around sometimes like that with eachother. Unless I ask about vape then im serious ok
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